Someone wise once said to us “The further you go into the past, the further you will go into your future.”
For me, going back into the past, does not mean awakening bad memories and pain. There are bad memories in the past, but strength is to see them through the lenses of God and His rescue. It means to acknowledge the “hand of God” in my life. The moments of pain that He carried me through, the uncertainties that looked completely hopeless, the miracles that He performed without me even asking Him to when I was too downcast to look to Him… I see Him in my past.
For many of us, we would rather not remember the past. We want to blot it out. In fact, we have re-defined ourselves so much, that there is no trace left of our “past”. Yet I think that no matter how painful the past, if we can allow ourselves to “re-visit” it through God’s lenses, it can become a stepping stone into the future because we will see God’s power splattered in every story.
For a while, I had STOPPED remembering my past. And I thought it was a good thing. I was re-defining myself. But my history has strength in it. And when I do not remember, I start to think that life has always been like this. I forget GOD. I forget the beauty of the “small things” that I used to be thankful for. I start to complain more, to worry more, to put myself under pressure, because suddenly, I think I AM SELF-MADE. I am the source. I am the provider. Yet I am not.
As I read the story of the Israelites journeying through the desert on their way to the Promised Land, this “stiff necked” people looked so familiar. They reminded me of me. Every time they forgot about God and focused on themselves or their leader, they grumbled and complained. And God warned them time and again, to REMEMBER where He brought them from, and what He has done for them, and to tell the stories to their children, that they may NEVER FORGET their story. A God story. And for as long as they were anchored in the God of their past, they were securely anchored in trusting Him for the future.
Please ALLOW yourself to go back into the past and remember what God has done for you. Name your blessings, and see how faith will arise in your heart. Do not fall for the lie to be INDEPENDENT. Depend on God, who has sustained you, when you knew it, and when you didn’t. BE WARE lest you forget the LORD and His work.
So, take some time today, and remember your story; it may not look so prim and proper, but it is your story, and in it is lots of power if you see it through the eyes of God and His redemption. If you are breathing, you are winning at some level. Remember!
Deuteronomy 6:10-12 “10So it shall be, when the Lord your God brings you into the land of which He swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give you large and beautiful cities which you did not build, 11 houses full of all good things, which you did not fill, hewn-out wells which you did not dig, vineyards and olive trees which you did not plant—when you have eaten and are full— 12 then beware, lest you forget the Lord who brought you out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage.”(Emphasis mine)